I went to sleep early last night. In bed by 10:30. I got up at 3:30 AM. Now it's 5 AM. And I mention that I am wide awake. I logged onto Facebook to see what I've missed and ended up talking to my girlfriend Halima Taha (author of Collecting African American Art: Works on Canvas and Paper) who got up to get a blanket and noticed that I was online. If you knew Halima you would know how crazy that is. She was never the online kinda chick. She blames me. LOL. I chatted with my boy Mike Moss who was up and online at 3:30 for some reason. He and I did a checklist for tomorrow and he went to bed. I chatted with a few folks on Twitter about Dick Armey being a "dick" for this performance on Hard Ball with Chris Matthews.
There is a shift going on in my world right now. I'm not exactly sure what it is but I can feel it. You know how Wonder Woman used to hit the spin and when she stopped she was in full wardrobe, hair down and silver bracelets ready to stop speeding bullets? THAT is how I'm feeling right now. I wrote on my Facebook page that I am Storm, Wonder Woman, Super Girl, Foxy Brown and Cleopatra Jones rolled up in one. I can't explain the genesis of this moment nor do I know what the end game is, but it feels good. It could be as simple as once you face the realities of your life, you are forced to make decisions. Or maybe when you can see who you are you make decisions based on that information. Bottom line is that nothing is more liberating than being clear and making good old fashioned decisions.
In this new space I am realizing that I am not as flexible about things as I once was. I am actually drawing a line in the sand about some things and making hard decisions about people in my life, my work life, my future (as I see it in my crystal ball of course) and my responsibilities to the world. With each passing day I am becoming clearer about where I stand in relation to that line.
Lessons learned the hard way include 1) People will drain you if you allow them to. So don't!! 2) Work will kill you if you let it (and they will replace you in a heartbeat once you are gone). So put it in perspective. Work hard, but play harder. 3) We have no idea what will happen in the next five minutes so let it go. All we can do is prepare. 4) Don't let people divert you from your path. That will make two of you wandering in the darkness. They might not even realize that they are in darkness, but you will. Give them a compass and get your butt back on track.
I'm turning in now. Going to see Jazz@Lincoln Center perform tomorrow and Wynton (Marsalis) is stopping by our Commissioning guild dinner. I have remarks to make at the dinner so I need to at least appear rested. And a shout out to Amy Knapp... thanks for helping me work out the Wynton thing. Good idea. ;) And I never saw this NY Times article on you and Myron until looking for a link to your name just now. Great article. You gotta love LOVE.
Peace,
Le
0 comments:
Post a Comment